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Welcome 2012

2011-12-31T17:03:00.001-08:00

Alone. At Home.
Azam tahun baru? : Teruskan hidup jer...

another SAD SAD month...

2011-12-24T17:45:00.000-08:00

Happy Anniversary to us...

Menyedihkan bila kawan kawan sebaya bercerita pasal nak menyekolahkan anak...
Tahniah Kak Na, kerana mengandung lagi!!
Tahniah Kak Mimi kerana dapat anak lagi!!

..Tiada tahniah untuk aku....

Heartwrenching

2011-12-01T20:04:00.000-08:00

A book i will never read again and an author i will not search again.....

sad, sadder, saddest

2011-11-24T01:11:00.000-08:00

Another depressing month.....

Went to a doctor today to get another batch of Clomid and found out ANOTHER WAY to take it..WTH?!!!

1st Cycle

2011-11-08T07:28:00.000-08:00

12th day...first cycle on Clomid...
But Hubby 's not here...i promised to never be sad about him anymore, but....
anyway..gambaremassu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we all wear masks...

2011-10-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

it is a miracle to find someone who knows the real you...and likewise,

Fiyus, I CRIED!

2011-10-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

I cried. Me. Who has stop believing in true love.....

"Are you happy?"
"Yes"
"Then i'm happy too"

not doing it seriously..

2011-10-10T08:56:00.000-07:00

Your rainbow is shaded red.

What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate energetic people. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Giving up is easier...

2011-09-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

Mrs. P visited me today.................

Birthday Wish!!

2011-09-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

I'm 32 today...or is it 33? never mind, its my birthday!!! My wish this year is this:

No, this is not my fetus....T_T

Still...my best friend Mrs. P doesnt come this month..yet....it has been 40 days today..
But ...negative maaa...uhuuuuuu

Not easy playing hard to get when that person.....

2011-09-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

just doesnt want to get you...huhuhu

went to PD on CRK..har har har...the water and the pool are great, the room not so great...but it was okay lah..

almost forget how to ~~swim~~ float...

it was fun....

half way to nowhere....

2011-08-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

why?
.
.
.
.
its so hard?

Finding out that i am a greedy woman....

2011-08-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

i'm not what i seem to be afterall....

I thought that i am a person who accept life as it is, a woman without structure...but then i realized that i have ambition, planning and desire for more in my life...since...forever. When i was younger i have this vision what my life would be in certain part of the future, and i was walking toward that vision unknowingly..or maybe i was ignoring it all this while for fear of failure. But then...everything came easily for me before....

Family dramas are so badddddd....

2011-08-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

i cried at sad times, i cried at happy times and i cried at eating time

Family Honor : 54 eps

Can You Hear My Heart : 30 eps

City Hunter

2011-07-31T06:01:00.000-07:00

Before 2009, i'm already a fan of Korean drama, but starting from that year, the Koreans really outdone themselves in producing awesome and beautifully entertaining dramas to the point of me not really flailing Japaneses dramas anymore (even though Baby was in them...uhuu). One of the most talked about drama this year must be Min Ho's City Hunter....

Because a lot people was saying how great and awesome City Hunter was, like the most amazing drama drama this year, i took my chance and spent 3 days watching it with my slow internet connection.

The thing is, i really dont like Min Ho in Personal Taste and the heroine Min Young Park is a real plastic girl ( not very eco lah).

So.....City Hunter was an awesome production but never amazing. And...i flail at Min Ho's cuteness, cuteness and cuteness..thats all i got to say about City Hunter....huuuu

The unfairness of a place called the Human World

2011-07-29T02:01:00.000-07:00

Aku kehilangan diriku dalam kalimah 'tidak mengapa'

'daijoubu'

'gwaenchanseumnida'

'it's okay' dan "لا بأس "

Arghh....setelah berlalu tiga dekat baru aku sedar, menjadi spesis yang bernama wanita serba serbi susah....sampai kekadang sampai terdetik dalam hati, "what is the point of everything, every struggle and hardship when i was younger?"...macam menanam pokok tapi buahnya, alahaiiiii....-ok, itu namanya rezeki, sikit atau banyak memang kena bersyukur-...tapi bila berjumpa ketidakadilan and we just cant fight against it, we'll find out that semua emas yang didulang semasa remaja rupanya hanyalah debu pasir ketika dewasa.

Aku memang respect habis kat diorang yang working wives and mothers. Dahlah kena potong jalan dengan lelaki-lelaki di tempat kerja, balik rumah kena kerja lagi untuk mereka (sons and husband).Yeah, daughters not included because they usually working with mom (huhuhu).

Hopefully, in near future, woman boleh senang naik pangkat, didengari, dihormati dan bukan hanya disuruh buat kerja remah supaya lelaki dapat nama.

Akhirnya, to finish omelan nonsense aku : Girls Power, Attack!!

NO MORE STRESS, PLEASE!!!!

Lie to Me 내게 거짓말을 해봐

2011-07-26T05:37:00.000-07:00

Lies : of course not a good thing, especially by people you love...but sometimes lies can bring good things too, if you can find the truth and sincerity within.....nyaw..but i still dislike Ji Hwan..

Lie to Me : a cinderella story, of course, tapi Korean drama selalunya membawa charactersnya dekat dengan kita..Finished in 2 days, and rated it 8 per 10..enjoyed it, laughed a lot, overall a very nice drama. Love Eun Hye, but although i admit KJH is a good actor, still doesnt make me a fan, jangan tanya, aku sendiri tak tahu.
Note :
Ah Jung said that she has no flowers anymore. ( i wanna say that too)
What easily get, usually unappreciated (feel that maaa)

Most of the time i'm a monster....

2011-05-23T19:24:00.000-07:00

I'm a very dark person....
not my skin colour but the colour of my heart...and my personality and my way of thinking..but most people never would have guessed it because of my sunny appearance. Yes, I smile a lot, i laugh at everything when I'm not alone...and that is my shell. Something i use to hide a darker side of me....
P.S: blogging at work is saiko!!!!

KehardSeeDaeng( เคหาสน์สีแดง )

2011-05-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since i enjoyed a lakorn..Red Castle, i must say was very enjoyable..very dreamy. I always love period dramas, especially Thai's lakorns such as this
..i love the music..the old fashioned pra'ek. Although Andrew was not in my list of my fav actors, i very much love him as Mor Ruj - cold, older pra'ek. I love that he fell helplessly in love with the girl he was supposed to hate...and then he loved her dearly. The nang'ek Mint was very sweet and feminine girl -wish there are more of them in Malay dramas....love her..
To those who like period dramas, some recommendations :
1. Buang Bajathorn
2.Botan Gleep Sudtai

p.s : i still giggling at the sweet ending.."mummy is alive"

Hari Guru Lagi!!

2011-05-17T21:08:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Guru semua terutama yang akan naik gred tahun 2012....kanashiminoorange hanya GURU BIASA merangkap kuli ajer....hehhehheh

strawberry generation

2011-04-01T03:22:00.000-07:00

expect nothing from them and you cant be disappointed....

went to the beach during school holiday....once....and alone...(yeah, still living live the bujang way)

back to work...and stress.......and disappointment.....so, decided that it is better to have no hope in certain matter.

Luvly Month

2011-02-19T01:20:00.000-08:00

Not that i celebrate Valentine..Coz i'm Muslim and so on...
February this year was just a lovely lovely time for me because of....

My wedding reception!!

at my parents's house

at his parents's house

and we came back to Malacca......

flood on the way... scary!

and went to the Zoo...

My hubby, calling out to the monkey..hikhikhik

lame, i know, but it was a fun day because it was kinda our first official outing as husband and wife..yay!!.

Friends...

2011-01-30T06:59:00.000-08:00

the more you smile the easier to get hurt

note to self : less sugar...and not too long on fire or the bottom crust gonna be too hard

Alhamdulillah..

2010-12-24T16:35:00.000-08:00

The highlight of year 2010..i'm married...yesterday!!! (24 Disember 2010)

me and my darling hubby

World full of lies...

2010-12-12T07:59:00.000-08:00

Selamat tinggal

Selamat tinggal
selendang hitam,
aku ucapkan pada mega yang membawa malam.
Selamat pergi
pasir masa,
aku kirimkan pada angin disember.

Akan kuhirup
secangkir ketabahan,
sehingga ku bertemu bunga cempaka.
Kugetap geraham sambil celik sedarku,
menatap wajah asing yang aku pasrah.

Selamat tinggal bayu malam yang diam.....

iq test

2010-11-20T00:26:00.000-08:00

Free-IQTest.net - Online IQ Test

110 -119 High-average 16.1% of Population !! Yay~~

ah..i want life to be fun again

2010-10-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

Another good one from Anderson.. Laughed much and cried much more..I love poignant love stories because you know there always happy ending after all the tears...

Gift for myself

2010-09-06T03:14:00.000-07:00

Because nobody gives me anything. RM 1,630.00..yeah!!

happiness vs sadness

2010-08-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

Cute and poignant...

Ah, sometimes i wish my life would be as colourful as a storybook, but most of the time i prefer it dull and unchanging. I laugh too easily and cry too fast, but deep inside me is nothingness. I wish my actions are expressionless as my feelings, at least. I'm tired to be two people at a same time. I'm 30 plus and should cease indentity crissis fgs!!! bla bla bla

eternal

2010-08-17T07:41:00.000-07:00

Impending death and immortality. Yeah, i love happy ending!!

A long way to walk alone

2010-08-01T01:48:00.000-07:00

----------------------------------
Ada persoalan
yang ditanya pada hati yang menipu
mengapa masih menanggung resah
walaupun sudah berhenti mengharap
apakah tidak jemu
menangguh airmata
kerana menjamukan senyuman
bilakah lagi
mahu memejamkan rindu
dan dengan apakah lagi
akan dikail pinta.
~~~~****~~~~~~

My kitchen's sink is Hazmat Situation!!

2010-07-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

I love this series!!! Sam and Rick were adorable. Most of the time, i tried to stay away from suspense story because my brain tends to go to sleep at the words mystery and investigation. But these series kept me through the mystery solving and romance, both were beautifully written and balanced. Suka juga bagaimana their relationship and their characters jadi mendalam, sesuatu yang jarang ditemui dalam single books. Next will be Twice the Temptation -the sequel?

Aku mahu dunia dikuasai wanita!

2010-07-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

Finally, after a bit more than a decade, my name will be on the SPR's list...because, i just registered today..so,i'm gonna be voting in the next election, yay!....maybe..

Nine Rules to Break When Romancing a Rake

2010-06-14T01:12:00.000-07:00

Amazing book..very lovable mousy heroine turned adventurous and a hero who must cross barriers to finally realized his love-that was until the very last minute!-
The book made me cried buckets and laughed some too..and somehow made me thinking about my life ..
Callie-who was younger than me!-somehow found herself on the spinster seat and considered passive, plain and unadventurous and destined for a boring, staid, utterly uninteresting life. But i'm glad that she brave enough to attempt at breaking the cage of her proper self by making 'the list' and doing it too.
Ah, i just wish i can be as brave as Callie...

Lamanya!!!

2010-05-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

Bleach 270 n 271 are awesome!!!!! Ichigo !!! Kya!!( flailx5*)

another anime : Hakuoki ...ep 4 baru ada chara development, baru rasa macam best gak anime ni..
ah, Chizuru...apa rahsia awak ye?

Soalan Bahasa Arab Ting 1

2010-05-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

First time ne~..so some mistakes cant be avoided..^_^

Soalan Peperiksaan Pertengahan Tahun 2010

يوم معلم سعيد

2010-05-17T01:21:00.000-07:00

happy teachers on Teachers Day

"kami guru Malaysia♫"

potong kek

some of them..yeah..arigatou minna

Sehari Bersama Penulis

2010-05-08T01:55:00.001-07:00

Much useless pictures but still...much awesome people

Dah dekat nak habis....asyan extra class~ Zaid Akhtar

Ah....asifah Ustaz......gtg~ Nazmi Yaakub

Reminded me why i gave up writing...too much about frustrations than anything..duh~

a poem for the faceless one

2010-05-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

apa yang lebih menyakitkan
kesunyian atau penantian

ada lagu untuk sang gagak
pada senja hari esok
pada lorong penghujung kota
demi perjalanan yang terhenti

berkali kali mengejar
bayangnya yang tak bernama
tapi langkah yang terantai ini
sekadar menjejak gelita

pada sang gagak yang memanggil
daun usia
apa yang lebih menyakitkan
kesunyian atau penantian?

labouring on The Labour Day

2010-04-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

may day~ may day....PTA meeting day~

adorable humans

2010-04-30T04:25:00.001-07:00

Alfu Tahani untuk Kak Zai yang baru jadi ibu semalam!!

أشان ما بستطع بحصول واحد منها....

"helpless"

andartu life is fun!!

2010-04-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

yeah!
while getting my quater pounder at the drive thru, i noticed that both drivers in the cars ahead and behind me are....females...and alone...like me..ahahahhahahha!

im getting tired of Arashi...their new songs are not really downloadable enough for me.
i miss TOKIO...but the latest perf on ms was a bit halfhearted..although i love 'advance' very much...maybe i dont google them as much as i used to..
i miss SHINHWA...i miss ric-gun and dong-wan oppa..uhukss...

addicted to e-books again...wonder when itll wear off this time..hmmm

pc fair?

2010-04-10T04:34:00.000-07:00

mujurnya i didnt bring money...or i probably ended up buying things i dont need..hehhe
tapi kamera olympus ...cantiknya!

Anak Tupai

2010-03-18T05:12:00.000-07:00

Artis: Halim Yazid
Lagu: Anak Tupai

Ada sekor anak tupa, atah jula mokte,
kudung ekor perok lapar, jale cari make,

Kejadian tuhan dipanggil nama tupa,
asalnyo dale hute, sejenis mamalia
Kejadian tuhan dipanggil nama tupa,
asalnyo dale hute, sejenis mamalia
kalu pasal jakit kot dahe, diolah yang paling panda,
jatuh jare-jare kerano dio tok soba,

pandai-pandai tupai melopat jatuh tanoh jugok,
nok wi gambar ko ore jahat, jange telajok manggok,
jange telajok manggok,

ore jame ghitu pakat hambat tupa,
bimbe ko buoh kayu, takut tok de besa,
ore jame ghitu pakat hambat tupa,
bimbe ko buoh kayu, takut tok de besa,
nyor, durie, duku, kalu de nyo kerik tupa,
pendek tahun tu nyor, durie tok dan nok jual

Ore sekapong tupa seko, berambak hari-hari,
nyo pakat likong, nyo pakat pekong, tupa tok leh lari

Sekak bedil ado, tupa habih mati,
hok ni la sayo raso kito sangat rugi,
kito manusia tinggi mano pun kita ngaji,
nok buat tupa seko, tentu sekali doh tok jadi

Lo ni kapong atau bandar, jare boleh tengok,
bapok tupa, ibu tupa jale bawok anok
jale bawok anok

raso sian sunggoh tengok seko anok tupa,
kerano telajok kuruh sampai tok leh nok niti pagar,
bulu-bulu pun habih luruh, air mata bera-bera,
mari dale baroh, bekali kena racun tebaka

credit: youtube.com/user/benkomund

kdhhghdsafbdvbvhdzm!

2010-03-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

Stars Falling From The Sky has ended. I gonna miss Kang Ha and Pal Gang..

Following P.S Man, currently.

Waiting for Personal Taste, Oh My Lady and Cinderella's Sister.

Disappointed in my imouto....again...

there are ugly things....

2010-03-03T04:15:00.000-08:00

tak boleh menutup mata.... dan memekakkan telinga..
yang buruk itu menjadi dan menjadikan keburukan dalam diri

dudi dum dum dudi dam dam

RM100

2010-01-16T12:11:00.000-08:00

isnt much T_T uhukk

Almost bought fasio stuffs..you can feel matsugeya no chikara.....m_m

Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge: always love the anime, never read the manga and i dont dislike Kame...so, yeah..this could be on my list to watch this year.

new year, new workplace, new people

2010-01-09T01:55:00.000-08:00

Creepy.

Strangers r scary lot ne~. Tak baik benci orang on your first day...tapi....

anyway, gambare massu >_<

cactus life

2009-12-25T05:32:00.000-08:00

i want to live on the moon or in a desert island with just fishes and birds...

me whois:

half-hearted, narrow-minded and childish..

i want to be honest, that money isnt everything, but is it?

i want to stop pretending, but arent everybody faking?

ah i love my sarang

selamat jalan

2009-12-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

rambutku....T_T

cut a heap of them, it is now shoulder length ....harap harap cepat lah panjang semula..

uhukkk

marratan ula

2009-12-01T22:12:00.001-08:00

some pics

in d 30th year..alhamdulillah..

malunya!!!

2009-11-04T03:11:00.000-08:00

ah,menangis depan boss!!! mana nak letak muka? dah lah tak cantik, bila menangis lagi buruk! Arghh, i wish i have a time machine & do today all over again. I know la, i'm not the most loyal employee out there, tapi setakat ni tak pernah le buat ke back stabbing, jalan belakang dll. Sekarang ni probably 2 daerah blacklisted my name WAAAA!!! nehi TT_TT

mahu ke pantai

2009-10-22T20:13:00.000-07:00

ah, memang best online masa kerja sambil sembunyi dalam musolla. No classes today tapi minggu depan gonna be something hectic time.

Wish list:
-lcd tv (it would be a big one,dunno brapa inci kerana measurement yg aku tahu cuma besar dan kecil)
-lampu berdiri untuk living room (d current lighting is too bright)
-bangle emas atu braclet pun boleh

solitude

2009-10-11T20:18:00.000-07:00

is what i crave
To be alone and not lonely

Silibus dah abis. Pmr hampir tamat. Buku latihan dan nota belum disemak. Meja belum dikemas. Buku yuran belum ditutup.
Uniform belum dapat dikutip habis. Hutang Polis belum dikutip .......

I'm addicted to ebooks dan tak mampu bebas darinya

marriage and other disasters

2009-10-08T10:50:00.000-07:00

all my friends are married women.

life slips by fast and increases in pace as one gets older.

I should cut my hair. Jumpa sehelai uban....

Birthday Soliloquy

2009-10-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

30 years and 9 days. No more "siapa aku?" dan "Mengapa aku di sini?". Tapi kadang-kadang masih confuse tentang apa yang aku mahu. Nothing and something.

30 tahun. Perkenalan aku dengan diri ini tidaklah terlalu lama dan pastinya aku belum benar-benar mengerti tentang diri yang bernama A.K.U ini.

Adakah aku compulsive atau seorang yang takes everything at my own pace? Aku akui , hidup yang kulalui setakat ini sangat mudah dan santai - walaupun i'm still single di usia ini and that somewhat a failure dalam komuniti ini - aku tidaklah bothered by it.

Ya, sometimes aku depress , sebab sunyi, dan kerana aku tak mencapai expectation sesetengah orang. The truth is, i dont like people so much. I love my family because they are family and that is it, namun mostly i'm disconnected from people around me. No love, not expectation, tak ingin ambil tahu, tiada simpati, most of the time i ignore them and wish that they cant see me. Hipokrasi: walaupun aku mendengar penuh perhatian dan kadang-kadang animatedly involve dalam conversations, another part of me keep saying, "c'mon, enough already!"

What makes me happy?:

What makes me sad?:

What makes me complete?:

Apa yang mahu diperbaiki?:

ebook vs paperback

2009-09-08T18:54:00.000-07:00

Illegal downloading memang best walaupun kualitinya sedikit bleh..tapi paperback is much much more....walaupun pricey.

Currently masyhuk dengan: Julia Quinn.

stressfull life of past, present and future

2009-09-07T23:06:00.000-07:00

seekor kucing di belakang rumah
mencari tulang ikan di tengah hari
ingin aku campakkan nasi
tapi perut masih berkeroncong lagi

Song : Carnival night
Mood : not good

太陽と砂漠のバラ

2009-09-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

Nya, i love everything in this PV. Baby is so perfect!!

ah, and subeki koto's

ter-Kuarantin jugak..

2009-07-28T23:44:00.000-07:00

till 4th of August. Dengan 3 kematian di negara ini, meremang juga bila keluar ke tempat ramai org. Lagi, ramai pula yang ter-kuarantin yang keluar beli-belah etc.

Muteki... Tapi Kuasa Tuhan lagi hebat.

H1N1, please go away.....

How to forget a mistake

2009-07-10T01:19:00.000-07:00

Make a bigger one....

I got my new car today..Perasaan bercampur-campur. Kalau sekali pandang a Standard Toyota Rush rupanya macam Myvi. Dua kali pandang pun macam Myvi jugak. Only bigger.

Mujur ada kak Mimi tolongkan negotiate untuk balash saje balance. Kak Mimi kata, sepatutnya boleh minta diskaun lagi,atau cover seat leather, atau minyak full tank. Untuk eksesivri - tinted dan cover seat, perlukan lagi kurang RM 1500. Maybe next month lar. Tapi next month dah kena bayar installment~

ah, mushtaqah alaik, kelisa qadim~

خيبات في يوليو

2009-07-09T05:04:00.000-07:00

- Vampire Kisses by Ellen Schreiber.
- Size L

arg, seito-tachi, i've no mood to pamper you all

hashire!!

2009-07-06T01:22:00.000-07:00

“Kareinaru supai” (“The Great Spy.”)

baby,kya!!!..yeah, i stole the cap from someone's lj

menduksai...

2009-07-05T22:04:00.000-07:00

perkataan yang tak sepatutnya dilontarkan.

Login lagi semasa kerja walaupun banyak yang tak siap.
Mebi, upload saje soalan2 ke scribd supaya tak hilang dalam timbunan....yeah, i'll do it... After i finish...whatever i'm doing now..
Maybe.
Message to self: jimat ! Jgn bayar bil internet bulan ni !!!!

A new car!

2009-07-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

I want one. a full spec Silver Metallic Toyota Rush. But maybe i will settle for a regular auto.

Yeah maybe.
Next week

bertemu waktu dan bayang

2009-07-02T07:15:00.000-07:00

Bulan yang putih
menemani perjalanannya
kesekian kali, lalu
Kegelapan mengusap
dan menari dengan lagu malam

Air mata telah sirna
atau hilang dalam cahaya
lalu dalam tapak tangan
hanya ada bayang

Thursday, July 05, 2007

yappari...

2009-07-01T20:18:00.000-07:00

***menulis dengan handphone.

Too much work. Solution: ignore it.
Too many annoying people. Solution: internet.

Ah, berharap untuk gembira when disconnected..

Summer, Spring, Winter and Autumn and You.

2009-07-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

Teringatkan dia di musim luruh
menanti hingga selendang hitamku bertukar putih
Betapa aku iri pada orang yang boleh berkata
Tolongi aku
Berhenti, dan jangan pergi….

Menanti dibawah teduhan pohon musim dalam hatiku
hingga hilang bayang bayang
dan air mata
Tolong! Aku menjerit
Aku iri pada mereka yang boleh menangis…

Tuesday, June 12, 2007